speech therapy bitch

we enrolled thomas in speech therapy since he won't talk. i'd love for him to talk, but really he'll talk eventually. this whole process is annoying. we had to have not 1 or 2 meetings, but 4 to enroll him. obviously by the 3rd meeting, you should know and be able to get a therapist locked away and start ASAP. 


i'm now doubting this whole shitty thing. i understand that the original person had to figure out his level, but the kid isn't fucking stupid. he's too smart for his own good really. 


we get his scores and he's off the charts in gross motor skills. below in speech. well no shit. 


anyways, we finally get a therapist and she comes over with NO FUCKING PAPER WORK on him. WTF? so she does her "tests" on him. same shit we did with the first girl...who was excellent (and you can't use them for services if they do the initial diagnosis.) 


she starts with can you point to a cat? my blood was boiling at this point. he doesn't talk, what the fuck can't they understand?? he's not fucking stupid, he knows what shit is. so she gets him to point at random shit on different cards and when thomas knows shit and he's annoyed that you're questioning his smarts, he tunes you out. plan and simple. he knows what the shit is and he's not going to "repeat" himself. 


then the next activity is a baby doll. another moment of eye rolling and more blood boiling.

• he's a boy, he doesn't play with dolls. 
• no he doesn't have any dolls that he tries to "feed" with any sort of plastic bottle or spoon.
• no he doesn't feed his stuffed animals. if he kept a stuffed animal downstairs, sushi would have eaten by now. so no stuffed animals go down there. 

he was more interested in seeing the liquid appear and disappear in the bottle than feeding a doll. 


and how is this supposed to help him speak? 


she brings out more "toys" for him to play with and in her holier than thou i'm fucking better than you look and tone seems to imply we should not be allowing him to act up and cry and shit because she's taken a new toy away and put it up. fucking leave the shit out and move on to the next thing. 


if he wants to hold a damn train car and you make him do circus tricks, then so be it. you're bringing new shit into his world and take it away after a few minutes. he sees you put it in the bag and wants to look, touch, play with it. sorry but you're a grown up and a professional and should know by now, that shit doesn't fly with 2 year olds. you put it out of reach/sight when they aren't looking. grrrrrr


also wants to get rid of his paci. he'll get rid of that too when he wants. i'm so tired of other people knowing what's best for MY FUCKING KID. mine. dan's. not yours. 


sorry lady, but i'm not getting rid of his chew toy and yes, that's what it is. he's getting all 4 pointy teeth and likes to chew on it sideways. he won't take a teether or cold facecloth, so yes, he can have the damn paci. 


fucking let him be a 2 year old. that's what i'm thinking is best for him. 

here he is chomping away. sorry, but he can have it. my gums hurt for him. 


then she cancelled our appt. last week. after setting a time, she cancels because she's buying a house. really, you work for an hour with him a week and you can't figure out when you can reschedule with him after making us wait? 


i'm reallllllllly not liking this shit at all. i've read all the paper work of what you should do and it's shit we've been doing with him. he knows his shit he just won't talk. and yes, his hearing is fine. 


i really have my doubts about this and am starting to think it's some new age hippy shit that's another thing to put pressure on parents. like this cnn.com article... baby language. yup, he did all those baby noises and said momma and dadda. he makes noises now.  so yup, now i say fuck all this shit. 


if she does the same shit tomorrow momma bear is coming out and it's not going to be pretty....especially since i still feel like crap.


i started with a cough on tuesday last week. i went to the dentist monday, so i though the reason i was coughing tuesday was from all that crap he had to saw off of my crown and that it got stuck. coughed on and off all week and of course saturday i'm just horrible. sunday too. 


went to the dr. this morning and i have some sort of infection. my white blood cells were high, but they don't know what it is. i just have this loud, hurting cough. got a steroid shot in my ass, a pack of steroids to take for the week and allergy meds. blah. shot hasn't seemed to help any today.


i guess i'd rather this fucking annoying wake you up cough than be covered in spots. lower immune system from the enbrel. and also know that i'm ok on my enbrel after a scare in dec. with elevated liver levels and such. blah. 


and now thomas has started coughing....